A violin player

    Once I saw a violin player on Glee, and some orchestra show, I think they're elegant for both women and men. But I never decided at least to try playing it, I decided to learn guitar and keyboard. But just by some practice, I enjoyed guitar more than keyboard, so I stop learning keyboard. Kesempatan bermain biola itu nggak pernah sampai kepadaku, tapi aku tetep suka liat adek-adek kelas di SMP yang bisa main biola. Until that one chance, one golden chance. Bulan Juni 2017 akhir, aku ditawarin temen untuk ikut latian biola sebagai orkestra di acara (yang aku tau waktu itu) acara nasional. I thought, gila apa? Basic aja nggak bisa, ini suruh latian buat acara nasional bulan November? Aku bahkan nggak punya biola, dan aku nggak yakin buat nabung and bought one, it's more expensive than a guitar I bought 5 years ago. Akhirnya aku coba cari pinjeman biola dan ketemu sama temen SD-ku.
    It was a serious journey bisa bermain biola sampai saat ini. Aku (yang emang sukanya) merasa terintimidasi ada ditengah-tengah tim orkes biola lain di sekolahku, karena aku merasa bodoh banget. The hell they said nggak bisa, nggak mahir, jarang pegang, lah ini aku PERDANA banget pegang, I know nothing (just like Jon Snow, kiew~). But they trust me and I trust them, so I continue to find ANY WAY to enhance my playing like a pro, or at least, pretend to be like a pro. I spent all day all night to figure out do = C, do = D, do = A, do = E by myself, I don't want to look dumb if I asked. Aku sempet menyerah karena aku nggak enjoy ditengah embel embel "acara nasional" ini, I had a crisis dan aku kembali main gitar. But then I saw another orchestra show (it was Erwin Gutawa Orchestra, shoutout) I had my spirit back.
    Sampai akhirnya kita ini dipertemukan yang jauh lebih pro, seperangkat orkestra dari ISI Yogyakarta, I felt like a peanut in the middle of pearls and diamonds. The way they play, the way they move their knuckles to reach the melody was UNBELIEVABLE, aku nggak jadi terintimidasi lagi, aku bersemangat, I WANT that, and I want it NOW. One thing that my friends and my couch said about me "being professionally" play violin adalah karena aku secara nggak sadar gerak gerakin badan (macam orang tahlilan) ngikutin arah bow-ku, jadi kalo up aku ke kiri, kalo down aku ke kanan, welp, I did that tiap main gitar juga, so. Dan pada akhirnya aku bisa main biola untuk acara (ternyata) internasional, Kemenag Pendis Expo 2017 di ICE BSD Tangerang. It was 15 lagu, dengan latihan kotor 2 bulan dan karantina seminggu di Tangerang. I feel honoured, dan sekaligus nggak menyangka bahwa aku waktu itu berada di posisi yang aku biasanya kagumi kalo liat pagelaran orkestra, a violin player.
    I'm not saying kalo aku sudah mahir, ya enggak lah orang selama ini latihan target, bukan latihan untuk jadi mahir. Tapi aku SANGAT beruntung I finally got a chance to be a violin player (and I didn't waste it) untuk acara internasional tadi, dan untuk acara wisuda purna angkatanku. It feels amazing to become the person I always admire on TV, tapi aku belum tau selanjutnya aku mau terusin main biola atau enggak. Mungkin belum, untuk saat ini, aku lebih fokus di bidang bahasa (Deutsch, ehkhem), but I'm looking forward if my future daughter has the same ambition as her mom. The thing is, just, never say "impossible" to anything that you haven't try out yet, beside, you will never know if you never try, and guarantee you'll regret it if you waste your chance. Being a violin player WAS impossible to me, but I managed to learn and just keep learning until I can, and I can.
    This might be my achievement in high school. Aku biasanya punya achievement yang akan aku capai di setiap jenjang pendidikan, dulu waktu SD aku pingin fluent bahasa Inggris, waktu SMP main gitar, dan SMA, main biola. Damn, I almost get to the end of my high school life. Anyway, I'll be graduating on May 3rd, doakan semua lancar, dan ya, I'll be a violin player once again for my graduation.
Danke!
Tchüss~